40DoFFL. (check/review/todo list)

~ DL
4May I protect this fire by seeking you day by day and listen to the songs you sing and dance around me with your love. My heart is yours and may it be so everyday.

Day 1.

Proverbs 3:27

Lie: “If they don’t love you back, why bother loving them?”
Truth: Love (God) has the power to see beyond “ugly” and the power to do so lives within you. God and Love lives within you.
Lie: “Eventually they’ll see that you’re a very loving person and like you.”
Truth:^sometimes maybe but Love because Jesus loved, when you were undeserving. It’s not about you. It’s about Jesus when he died and sharing that to others. Even when they don’t know. Trust in God’s timing. 

*Note to self* – focus on God’s love to progress forward. Not on not being loved by people but on being so so so loved by God.

 

Proverbs 3:31

Lie: “People who don’t care, don’t give a Foot, and “do what they want when they want” are cool.”
Truth: No. It’s actually not. It’s an easy task, ‘to talk’ and a stupid easy task to talk down on others.
James 1:19 Know this, my beloved brothers: let every person be quick to hear, slow to speak, slow to anger;
*note to self – read James 1:19 tomorrow. You need to heal and find truths on *Anger*
😦 – I don’t like Anger Doris but it’s a side of me that I cannot deny, it’s real and ugly. 
 
*note to self- (honesty is flowing out) Fearing that I over did today’s posts and fearing that I might not do because of time consumption. 
G – “it’s okay to be on fire for the first day, as long as candle is still lit end of 40 days”
 
*side note self – do not be too honest with friends, slow to speak remember? 🙂
be too honest with God. 

Day 2.

Jesus, no I don’t know if I can ever live a purely honest and lie-free life. Esp to myself. Help me to not lose hope to strive after it still.. 

 

 

Day 3.

Verse of the day rang with me throughout the day.

  • Romans 12:12
     Rejoice in hope,
    be patient in tribulation,
    be constant in prayer.    It was so simple. Yet filled with so much encouragement, strength, and perseverance. Kept reading it.

*****

It’s silly. I think of this with Jesus and “do you think I’m basic?” LOL no. you performed miracles. But I was thinking along the lines of sliding down a huge hill on your sled and laughing because of the thrill and excitement. But Jesus is the the type of excitement that overwhelms you to tears and I don’t know if I’m making any sense but do you get where I’m going?

G.Doris. “idk either but for the last part, if you are truly immersed in God’s spirit, because God knows when not to respond and because you’ll know and be settled that only God can judge and God is joy so you can also find joy and God is not a stiff board. He is great and big but he’s light and life. You are not going to feel like you’re missing anything because he will be everything and it’ll be good.

 

Day 4.

I pray for a heart that doesn’t question your goodness but celebrates your greatness and spend more moments in fellowship with you Jesus.

 

Day 5.

God is good. It’s not the right word to call it possession. God gives us choice and it’s a good thing to be like the perfect Father in Heaven no? Denying oneself isn’t denying who you are, it’s denying the things that you want that pulls you away from God. God gives us an out from all the holiness I’m sure but it’s through our love for him and his good spirit to move in us that we say Yes to Jesus and Yes to the spirit. God is good.

 

Day 6.

3 For the lips of a forbidden man drip honey,
and his speech is smoother than oil,
4 but in the end he is bitter as wormwood,
sharp as a two-edged sword.
5 His feet go down to death;
his steps follow the path to Sheol;
6 he does not ponder the path of life;
his ways wander, and he does not know it.
Do I want to marry or “get down” with a man who does not ponder the path of life? who’s ways wander and doesn’t even know it? Doesn’t even sound like a man to me.

Day 7.

2 Thessalonians 3:5
May the Lord direct your hearts to the love of God and to the steadfastness of Christ. 

(This is me talking to myself)
“Doris, you can whine, b****, and moan, and complain about how you don’t get it, or you can fully take it in as a learning opportunity. And I think it reflects on how God’s plan for me doesn’t happen over night. It takes learning and perseverance and constant hard work, trying to focus and (work joke) “take ownership” of the things that I am learning and need to communicate.

 

Day 8.

Too busy, trying to catch up with work…
Failed in trying to “stay pure”… which led me to NOT write or look for or rely on God’s “verse of the day” moment. for day 3/9.
sigh. Temptation is always right behind you waiting for every possible weak spot.

 

Day 9.

like said in 8, did not seek God today. *Jesus help.

 

Day 10.

on friday (hindsight should have gone to NY for small group) but it felt so far.

 

Day 11.

Had Worship Night. 

(Vision I had)
When we accepted Christ, we accepted that we were not our own, that our hearts belonged to God and that our hearts were a home for his spirit to dwell. So no matter our far our hearts wander on the path of life, in our house is a home for God’s spirit, he actually has the deed to the house, and he always finds a way back home. And more importantly, we have a place in God’s heart, that he offers his home to us and all we have to say is yes. How beautiful is our home, comfort and security.

 

Day 12.

Sunday.

“You can come to church and cry every Sunday but if you are not changing and following through with obedience then you will keep falling.”

 

Day 13.

15 so now I have come out to meet you,
to seek you eagerly, and I have found you.
16 I have spread my couch with coverings,
colored linens from Egyptian linen;
17 I have perfumed my bed with myrrh,
aloes, and cinnamon.
18 Come, let us take our fill of love till morning;
let us delight ourselves with love.
But sin and in this situation lust, comes in with sweet things to offer, WAITING for you to come around the corner, telling you that you just need to say yes, and everything will be prepared and set for this wonderful good smelling night of pleasure.
… We really don’t see it coming and when our hearts are weak, either with insecurity, or doubt, or laziness, or fear, we give in because “TEMPTATION” is SO READY. SO PREPARED. That’s actually so scary. So even when all things seem good, or alright or fine, brothers and sister, I pray that you’d be cautious because we live in a not so perfect world. But have hope because we have a everyway perfect God on our side.

Day 14.

Jesus. I pray for not only for desire of knowledge and your word but for my willingness to love you and spend time with you. REALLY RELY on you knowing my day blessed with your spirit is so much better than assuming “today will go okay (without God or praying)”. Let me want to share my time with you. 

Day 15.

Proverbs 8:12 *snap snap snap*
12 If you are wise, you are wise for yourself;
if you scoff, you alone will bear it.

Let us use our wisdom to not lift ourselves higher but to lift others higher and for our sole desires to get to know our Father, Savior, and King.

Proverbs 8:17
17 “Stolen water is sweet,
and bread eaten in secret is pleasant.”
Father God, I dispel any feeling that working in secrecy from you or from my friends will give me the thrill and excitement I long for. Excitement and thrill is seeing your glory work in tough situation, when it heals shattered brokenness, when you call me your daughter and when I find freedom in the love that you give from the fears of this world. Father God, let water be gracefully given and replenished by you. Let bread be broken and eaten in your fellowship. Let spending time with you save me in times of boredom and draw me close to sing you praise. King of my heart. In Jesus name. Amen.
day 16.

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