About

I started this blog as a QT accountability/journal page back in 2015.
Today, it serves as… a tool for God (I hope). I’m honestly not sure. But that’s not for me to know but surely God will unravel his purpose. I’m just here because I was convicted and convinced though the affirmations of those around me to say yes.

Some facts/testimony: I wasn’t born into a christian family but looking back I was given pockets of getting to know of God. Whether it was my mom’s only relative in the states encouraging her to take the kids to church, my tutor’s (who is a PK) family driving me to and from their church, or my taekwondo friend inviting me out to her church 5 mins from where I lived, it was clear God wanted have a relationship with me. It was college when I questioned what life was. Depression, family conflicts, drinking until 7am, waking up at 4pm to do it all over again every weekend. “was this all life had to offer?” It was people around me again who led me to a church my junior year of college 2013. Baptized in 2014. And truly began following Jesus 2015 after a missions trip to OTR, Ohio. For God’s glory, not my own. I told myself. Since, the road has been anything but peaceful but of course redemptive and victorious. If you were to ask me if I could go back and do things differently. NO. I am a firm believer that the “ugly and uglier” make up the full beauty of following God.

2023. I recently turned 30. This year also marks my 10th year at my church/what I like to believe was the beginning of my spiritual journey as an adult. I feel all the tension of being a newborn to this decade but all the wiser and full of grace for the trials to come. 20s was a lot of waiting for that day to come where everything comes together. I have realized that I am living in that “day” everyday. We’ll see what my 30s round up to be.

WHY ARE YOU THINKING GRAPEFRUIT

I was in college originally when this “occurrence” occurred. I was listening to my QT via earphones as I prepared a little breakfast. The grapefruit diet was a big fad back then and I was determined to LOSE THAT WEIGHT. So as I dug into my grapefruit, I began to lose focus on the QT and God said,

“why are you trying so hard to get every pulp?”

“Because I paid for it” I replied. It clicked in me then: God pursues us because he sent Jesus to pay for our sins to have a relationship with him.

In the midst of fellowship in college “family groups” we discussed what we would name our small groups if we were to ever lead one and I replied “think grapefruit” and I shared the story of the “revelation” I experience. Of course later I realized this was a personal name rather than a group name but started up a QT blog to continue the shared family group QT blog that had ended with the school year.

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