I’m gonna be real honest. SMH DORIS.

It honestly was going so well. Then I was lazy, then I prioritized everything else before QT time and…

It’s really embarrassing. I’m typing out a defeat now because the ultimate goal was to fast from lies and I couldn’t even spend the time of day to fast from it.

The truth in this is that, I did not seek God’s truth in my day with my time and fell weak to grow spiritually and I could get disappointed, never try this again and know that I will always have seasons of “holiness” and not-so-aligned-ness but I say difficulty that I still have hope. And I’m not just writing this because someone might read this one day (no one has really read any of my posts for this DOFFEL period), but really because I have faith, it’s still with me, enough to know that my God is hope and his glory comes through hope. One thing I really don’t want is to have my words louder than my actions, but hope is… there’s a verse… be right back.

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“Therefore, since we have been justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ. Through him we have also obtained access by faith into this grace in which we stand, and we rejoice in hope of the glory of God. Not only that, but we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.”

Romans 5:1-5 

 

This verse is exactly how I’m feeling and I feel sad that I couldn’t accomplish what I… what God and I hoped to accomplish but I’m feeling a lot of faith, a lot of grace, and I think this what makes following Jesus so beautiful.

 

I really wasn’t planning on tearing up or find God on this “defeated” last day of lent but..

Thank you God.