I’ve been having… too many thoughts. So just a quick prayer for that because it’s affecting the way I interact with others and it’s making me fickle, doubtful, nothing beneficial. So I’ll pray.

Father God, I lift my heart and mind to you. Let your word and spirit guide it so that it may speak one voice, for your kingdom and in Jesus name I pray. Amen.

Proverbs is great for my heart right now which wants to do opposite things at the same time with the same amount of passions. Proverbs simply states not what to do but what will happen to those who do what. “Folly is a joy to him who lacks sense, but a man of understanding walk straight ahead.” Wish the world would follow this one way is the right way and it is an installed truth but unfortunately and thankfully at the same time (here I go again), we are not made like robots with a function/purpose installed before we are born rather we come to seek and learn it for ourselves.

God I seek you. I seek you in this time of need where I want to truly and purely obey. But, my heart and sin is not that simple. One is weak and wants more than it needs and the other is deceptive and cunning. So I pray for righteous light. I pray for undeserved protection, and grace. I pray for my arrival at the cross everyday for my life is really not my own and not immediately but surely a joy that it is so. For a heart that looks at the world so beautifully, help me to see it through your glory. How not the people created a culture throughout the continents that are so fascinating and unique but how you created this universe so widely for us. Am I selfish to think that you’ve created the universe only for us humans that you’ve breathed life into? Or does it show the vast love you have for us weak, tempted human beings? This April, it’s going to have been 3 years since I’ve been baptized and wow, have I’ve fallen/pooped/and burped more than a baby should have (metaphorically of course). I can and can’t wait for the years to come if in 3 years I’ve climbed mountains and sunk in dark rivers. lol to my fickle heart. I pray for this time to be thoughtful steps, a moment to slow down and be cautious, time of discipline to your word and your home inside me. For this re-renovation of the home in my heart to have lining and patterns with text that says “Do not remove, property of Jesus, bad things will come if you do not from me but from sin. This couch, will, lamp, set up is protecting you.” Before I go to long, God thank you. For all the things you’ve already have done for me to be here questioning and redefining again, for this grace to allow me again to be living by spirit. I love you. In Jesus’s most precious name I pray, Amen.