5 – On Sunday Pastor Joe talked of Holiness and Pureness and it is possible. I think when I first encountered God, it was possible to me but I think the disappointments after failing to be righteous with God led me to disbelief to truly follow God.
Which then led me to another thought. If you lead the most holy and purest life according to God, are you even you? We sing that we are vessels to God’s spirit but is it to the point where it can called “pocessed”? I know these questions are not the easiest because it kinda makes Christianity scary, or to me at least sounds scary. “Denying oneself” and “being filled by God”. If you are completely fill with God, “are you even you?”
God is good. It’s not the right word to call it possession. God gives us choice and it’s a good thing to be like the perfect Father in Heaven no? Denying oneself isn’t denying who you are, it’s denying the things that you want that pulls you away from God. God gives us an out from all the holiness I’m sure but it’s through our love for him and his good spirit to move in us that we say Yes to Jesus and Yes to the spirit. God is good.
God. Thank You for allowing me to come to this truth about “denying oneself” it’s been a fear. That I won’t be me if I fully deny myself, but who I am is Your child. and it’s now more about accepting the love and title that I don’t deserve and all your glory that comes with it then denying the lies that made up the weak version of me. It will be good. When I am the most holiest and purest that you call me to be. It will be good.
6 – Proverbs 5:3-6
3 For the lips of a forbidden woman drip honey,
and her speech is smoother than oil,
4 but in the end she is bitter as wormwood,
sharp as a two-edged sword.
5 Her feet go down to death;
her steps follow the path to Sheol;
6 she does not ponder the path of life;
her ways wander, and she does not know it.
(Very gender solo in the bible but I understand God speaks to man as in huMAN so it’s all good.)
buttttt I’m going to go and switch out the female to male so I can relate.
3 For the lips of a forbidden man drip honey,
and his speech is smoother than oil,
4 but in the end he is bitter as wormwood,
sharp as a two-edged sword.
5 His feet go down to death;
his steps follow the path to Sheol;
6 he does not ponder the path of life;
his ways wander, and he does not know it.
I love this. Vs 3, we all have a guy in mind, makes your heart stutter and he’s just “sexy” to the core haha but vs 4-6, God speaks truth about his heart and actually turns me off.
I’ve pondered on sex before marriage and time and time again I say it’s okay if they really really love each other but… true love waits.
I was speaking to Min, Paster Eddie’s wife during a open seminar for ladies and I asked what to do in this era where 50% of marriages are failing and people are cheating left to right yet our hearts desires love and companionship. She said, “Marry a christian man.” Because at the end of the day or end of the fight, it’ll come down to your own individual beliefs and how can you feel the slightest bit “safe” when he doesn’t whole heartily follow the God of Love, forgiveness, and grace? And this verse really just reflects and adds to that. Do I want to marry or “get down” with a man who does not ponder the path of life? who’s ways wander and doesn’t even know it? Doesn’t even sound like a man to me.
God I’ll try. Lust is hard but I’ll try to hold close this truth that you’d want me to wait for the right guy. That I would wait for the right man that would give me the best possible God-glorifying relationship and family. So set my heart straight God to seek a man that knows your word. To chase after men like you, who desires a heart like you and that i would keep a clear head to remind myself time and time again that some men may have honey-like words and features but it comes from a lost core. Help me. In Jesus name. Amen.
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