So currently it’s October. mid-October. 23 years old. Year and 5 months after graduating college. Working on my brother’s cosplay costume for halloween. huh…

If I put it this way, it makes me really think about myself with others and where they are, what they’re doing, and it really gets you thinking. What am I doing. What have I done?

And after contemplating on that thought, I’m sure like everyone else, anxiety hits and you’re thinking about a million things you did NOT do and thoughts of failure starts to creep in.

BUT through the grace of God, I’m able to breathe easy and find peace from all these questions knowing that He is the “man with the plan” and thankfully, the man with the plan loves me. *sigh*

I really started typing with the idea of writing about what I was thinking about, my anxieties, but right now I just want to share how good God is. In this exact moment, God says, “It’s okay” and that’s really all I need. He’s really all I need. Whoa.

God. It’s again so incredible to be at this place where my complaining self shuts off and I’m able to find so much peace knowing you are real. My future is quite jumbled to try and see what I’m going to pursue in my career, my life, with people but one thing I know for sure is that I will try to pursue you… with all the crap that I carry, I’m gonna try my hardest to pursue you and your kingdom. So help me God. Help me when I can’t find faith and strenght to follow you, to bring me back to you always. Lead me to my cross and help me in all the places I lack so that I can be disciplined to your kingdom. I love you God. In Jesus name, Amen.