You know when you’re exhausted and you know you should sleep but can’t sleep because those darn existential thoughts and you know you shouldn’t care about certain things but you do because moods.

That was me. 1 minute before typing this post. 

But you know what was me 30 seconds before this post. At complete peace.

Confused? I’m sorry. Let me re-explain.

I was just exhausted from a long day. From a long week. From a long month. And it’s the kind of exhaustion that makes you cry and then makes you stop to think, “wait why am I crying, I’m strong. I’ve been strong this whole month.”

And right as I was about to sleep after washing up, turning the lights off… A million insecurity-like thoughts spilled in. But as soon as they rushed in, so did Jesus. A friend recently shared how a Pastor worded peace at her recent retreat. Peace isn’t the absence of complications, it’s the presence of Jesus. And it’s exactly what happened. God’s grace swooped Jesus’ peace over me and I no longer cared about who thought of me as what. All that mattered was that I was his loved child and that was it.

God. Thank You for coming to my rescue. I find it so surprising how I’ve changed to find how much security and peace I find in your name. And I’m sorry to boast but God you’ve changed me and so much of your glory is present in that. I love you so much God and you the best. Thank you for all that you are. Thank You for your presence. In Jesus name, Amen.